I too am on the DM5...so also working hard every single day to make some logic out of our neurotypical world. One of the gold nuggets I found over the yrears was that trust is a system that follows the hard rules of game theory.

I also rationally know we need people close to us in our lives to flourish. This insight can perhaps help you to create the right context for yourself to trust again and be happy > https://ncase.me/trust/